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Chapter One

Morristown – January 1780

There was a nervous rustling in the white-washed meeting house, a disturbance of air like the sound of sparrows taking wing. Becca Parcell peered over the balcony’s rough, wood railing, blinking away the fog of half-sleep. She had been dreaming of the figures in her account book and wondering whether there would be enough money for seed this spring. “I didn’t hear what ….” she whispered to Philip’s mother. Lady Augusta Georgiana Stokes Parcell, known simply as Lady Augusta, covered Becca’s hand with her own. “Philip. They’re speaking of Philip.” Becca couldn’t tell whether it was her hand or Augusta’s that trembled. “The Bible says, if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out and cast it from thee, does it not?” The preacher’s voice was soft, yet it carried to every corner of the congregation. “They’re here. Amongst us. Neighbors who toast the King behind closed doors. Neighbors with no love of liberty.” Philip was a Patriot. He had died a hero. Everyone knew. Minister Townsend couldn’t be talking about him. The minister raised his eyes to hers. With his long thin arms and legs and round belly, he reminded her of a spider. She twisted her lips into the semblance of a smile as if to say “you don’t scare me.” But he did. “Which of your neighbors celebrates each time a Patriot dies?” Townsend’s voice rose like smoke to the rafters, took on strength and caught fire. “Their presence here is an abomination.” He rapped the podium with a flat palm, the sound bruising in the quiet church. “Then cast them out. Now.” Men pounded the floor with their feet. Becca flinched. It wouldn’t take much to tip the congregation into violence. Everyone had lost someone or something to this endless war. It had been going on for almost five years. Townsend’s thin arm rose, pointing to her. Becca’s breath caught. “And what of widows like Mrs. Parcell? Left alone, no longer guided by the wise direction of their husbands.” Guided? Becca pulled her hand from Augusta’s. She rubbed her thumb along the palm of her hand, feeling the rough calluses stamped there. She had learned the rhythm of the scythe at the end of the summer, how to twist and swing low until her hands were so stiff that she’d struggle to free them from the handle. She’d fallen into a dreamless sleep each night during the harvest too exhausted even to dream of Philip. She, Augusta and their servant Annie were doing just fine. “He hardly slept at home, as I hear it,” a woman behind her sniffed to a neighbor. Becca’s spine straightened. “No wonder there were no babes,” the second woman murmured. Becca twisted and nodded a smile to Mrs. Huber and Mrs. Harrington. Their mouths pursed into surprised tight circles. She’d heard them murmur, their mouths hidden by fluttering fans: About her lack of social graces; her friendship with servants; her awkward silence in company. “What else could you expect from her?” they would say, snapping shut their fans. Relief washed through Becca, nonetheless. This was merely the old gossip, not the new rumors. “Some of you thought Mr. Parcell was just another smuggler.” The pastor’s voice boomed. A few in the congregation chuckled. It was illegal to sell food to the British in New York – the “London Trade” some called it — but most turned a blind eye. Even Patriots need hard currency to live, Becca recalled Philip saying. “He only married her for the dowry,” Mrs. Huber hissed. Becca’s hand curved into a fist. Augusta cleared her throat, and Becca forced herself to relax. “Perhaps some of you thought Mr. Parcell was still a Tory,” the minister said. The chuckling died. “He came to his senses, though. He was, after all, one of us,” Minister Townsend continued. One of us. Invitations from the finer families had trickled away after Philip’s death. “We all know his story,” Townsend continued. “He smuggled whiskey into New York City. And what a perfect disguise his aristocratic roots provided.” The minister lifted his nose in the air as if mimicking a dandy. “The British thought he was one of them, at least until the end.” The minister’s voice swooped as if telling a story around a campfire. “He brought home information about the British troops in the City.” Becca shifted on the bench. She hadn’t known about her husband’s bravery until after his death. It had baffled her. Philip never spoke of politics. Townsend lifted one finger to his chin as if he had a new thought. “But who told the British where Mr. Parcell would be on the day he was captured? Who told the Redcoats that Mr. Parcell was a spy for independence?” Becca forgot to breathe. He wouldn’t dare. “It must have been someone who knew him well.” The minister’s gaze moved slowly through the congregation and came to rest on Becca. His eyes were the color of creosote, dark and burning. “Very, very well.” Mrs. Coddington, who sat to Becca’s left, pulled the hem of her black silk gown close to avoid contact. Men in the front pews swiveled and stared. “I would never. I didn’t.” Becca’s corset gouged her ribcage. “Speak up, Mrs. Parcell. We can’t hear you,” the minister said in a singsong voice. Townsend might as well strip her naked before the entire town. Respectable women didn’t speak in public. He means to humiliate me. “Stand up, Mrs. Parcell.” His voice boomed. “We all want to hear.” She didn’t remember standing. But there she was, the fingers of her right hand curled as it held the hunting bow she’d used since she was a child. Becca turned back to the minister. “Hogwash.” If they didn’t think she was a lady, she need not act like one. “Your independence is a wickedly unfair thing if it lets you accuse me without proof.” Gasps cascaded throughout the darkening church. From the balcony, where slaves and servants sat, she heard two coughs, explosive as gun fire. She twisted. Carl scowled down at her in warning. His white halo of hair, fine as duckling feathers, seemed to stand on end. He had worked for her father and helped to raise her. He had taught her numbers and mathematics. She couldn’t remember life without him. “Accuse? Accuse you of what, Mrs. Parcell?” The minister opened his arms to the congregation. “What have we accused you of?” Becca didn’t feel the chill now. “Of killing my husband. If this is what your new nation stands for – neighbors accusing neighbors, dividing us with lies – I’ll have none of it. “Five years into this endless war, is anyone better off for Congress’ Declaration of Independence? Independence won’t pay for food. It won’t bring my husband home.” It was as if she’d burst into flames. “What has the war brought any of us? Heartache, is all. Curse your independence. Curse you for ….” Augusta yanked on Becca’s gown with such force that she teetered, then rocked back onto the bench. The church erupted in shouts, a crashing wave of sound meant to crush her. Becca’s breath came in short puffs. What had she done? “Now that’s just grief speaking, gentlemen. Mrs. Parcell is still mourning her husband. No need to get worked up.” The voice rose from the front row. She recognized Thomas Lockwood’s slow, confident drawl. She craned her neck to watch Thomas, with his wheat-colored hair and wide shoulders. His broad stance reminded her of a captain at the wheel. He was a gentleman, a friend of General Washington. They’ll listen to him, she thought. “Our minister doesn’t mean to accuse Mrs. Parcell of anything, now do you, sir?” The two men stared at each other. A minister depended on the good will of gentlemen like Thomas Lockwood. The pastor blinked first. He shook his head. Becca’s breathing slowed. “There now. As I said.” Lockwood’s voice calmed the room. Then Mr. Baldwin stood slowly. Wrinkles crisscrossed his cheeks. He’d sent his three boys to fight with the Continental Army in ’75. Only one body came home to be buried. The other two were never found. He pointed at Becca with fingers twisted by arthritis. “Mrs. Parcell didn’t help when the women raised money for the soldiers last month.” A woman at the end of Becca’s pew sobbed quietly. It was Mrs. Baldwin. “You didn’t invite me.” Becca searched the closed faces for proof that someone believed her. “Is she on our side or theirs?” another woman called. The congregation quieted again. But it was the charged silence between two claps of thunder, and the Assembly waited for a fresh explosion in the dim light of the tired winter afternoon. With that, Augusta’s imperious voice sliced through the silence: “Someone help my daughter-in-law. She’s not well. I believe she’s about to faint.” Becca might be rash, but she wasn’t stupid, and she knew a command when she heard one. She shut her eyes and fell gracelessly into the aisle. Her head and shoulder thumped against the rough pine floorboards. Mrs. Coddington gasped. So did Becca, from the sharp pain in her cheek and shoulder. Women in the surrounding rows scooted back in surprise, their boots shuffling with a shh-shh sound. “Lady Augusta,” Mrs. Coddington huffed. Independence be damned. All of Morristown seemed to enjoy using Augusta’s family title, her former title, as often as possible. “Lady Augusta,” she repeated. “I’ve had my suspicions about that girl since the day she married your son. I don’t know why you haven’t sent her back to her people.” “She has no ‘people,’ Mrs. Coddington. She has me,” Augusta’s voice was as frosty as the air in the church. “And if I had doubts about Rebecca, do you think I’d live with her?” Becca imagined Augusta’s raised eyebrows, her delicate lifted chin. She couldn’t have borne it if her mother-in-law believed the minister’s lies. Augusta’s featherlight touch stroked her forehead. “Well done,” she murmured. “Now rise slowly. And don’t lean on me. I might just topple over.” “We are eager to hear the rest of the service on this Sabbath day, Minister Townsend. Do continue,” Thomas Lockwood called. Becca stood, her petite mother-in-law’s arm around her waist. The parishioners at the edges of the aisles averted their eyes as the two women passed. As they stepped into the stark, brittle daylight, one last question shred the silence they left behind: “Do you think she turned her husband over to the British?” Someone else answered. “It must be true. Everyone says so. ***

Excerpt from The Turncoat’s Widow by Mally Becker. Copyright 2021 by Mally Becker. Reproduced with permission from Mally Becker. All rights reserved.