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No Pistol tastes The Same

by Jacob Paul Patchen

Genre: Suspense (Military/PTSD)

Synopsis

JP’s pistol tastes like bourbon.

 

Sergeant JP Grimm didn’t pull the trigger. Now his Marine brothers are dead. All victims of a child in a suicide vest…a child that resembled Sgt. Grimm’s very own. But how are you supposed to take a child’s life? How can you kill someone that looks just like your own son?

 

Those same hazel eyes he saw in his scope continue to haunt him long after he left the desert death lands as he tries to reconnect with his son, Adin. JP battles another war at home against PTSD and the worthless, dejected thoughts that he is the reason his friends are dead. His wife, Lisa, struggles to let her stubborn husband work it out on his own terms. She does all she can to give him space, support, and strength—but her love can only go so far.

 

As the world shows signs of impending doom from a weakening magnetic field and flaring sun, JP, too, shows signs of his own impending doom. After pushing everyone away, JP must face his nightmares to restore his relationship with his son, save his marriage, and save himself before the modern world burns out in a fiery, electromagnetic disaster.

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Enjoy this peek inside:

Death Letter

 

On this green, issued, sweat-stained cot,

in salt-stiff desert cammies,

 

I drip words from my pores, like blood

from shrapnel wounds.

 

It is hot.

And thoughts of you steam my blood.

 

To say goodbye to smiles in a pile of pictures

 

is prison.

 

But, here, there are no visiting hours

no holiday breaks to touch your skin.

 

I am captive in this foreign land

a slave to a unit number

a digit in a media war.

 

I’m a piece of paper to a brass paper weight

filled with training checkmarks, achievements,

 

and next of kin.

 

No amount of wind will let me fly.

 

I am chained in this sand, blindfolded and bound,

as useful as a rotting corpse

 

without life…without soul.

 

And I am days away from that kind of death.

 

Or maybe minutes, or hours,

or even the seconds that tic loudly by

on this olive drab, sun-faded watch.

 

I’m writing to say goodbye,

because, by now,

 

I have accepted it.

 

Sgt. Grimm grunted as he leaned back in his front row, bottom bunk of tent three at Al-Asad Air Force Base. It was a tent big enough to house his whole platoon, though, with the excited noise and chatter of home, he wished it was only for himself. His lower back still felt like needles and his heavy head throbbed as he rested it on his folded digital blouse. “Bed rest.” Doc had ordered after the explosion several weeks ago. Now, as the deployment was coming to an end, and they had left FOB Hit behind them, the marines of Kilo 3/25 decompressed by playing football out front in the dirt, lifting weights at the Al-Asad gym, grabbing hot-chow seconds at the chow hall, or spending hours at the phone center calling home. For many, the morale was high.

 

But JP awoke that morning with another migraine and blurry vision. They’d be headed Stateside in less than two weeks, and he wondered what it would be like to face Joey’s family or tell them how he died—if they asked. Those thoughts kept him in bed all morning. Joey was the only marine who could piss him off more than First Sergeant, but still make him laugh until he forgot about the war. He needed that now, more than anything. But Joey wasn’t there to settle him anymore. Instead, his friend had been shredded by shrapnel at the hand of a bronze-eyed, six-year-old boy. The same six-year-old boy JP knew he should have shot when he had the chance.

 

But how the fuck are you supposed to take a child’s life? How can you kill someone that looks just like your own son?

 

Sgt. Grimm had plenty of time to replay the last few seconds of his friend’s life.

 

I should’ve killed him. I should’ve shot that kid right between the eyes. Dropped him. Ended him. Removed him from this Hell. Stopped him from creating mine.

 

He pinched the bridge of his nose and tried to relieve the pain throbbing at the back of his eyes.

 

But how? How could I? How could anyone?

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Jacob Paul Patchen is an award-winning author and poet of inciting fiction and provocative poetry.

 

Jacob earns his inspiration through experience and believes every book has a purpose. He writes powerful, emotional, and thrilling stories about mental health, war, social stigmas, and other taboo subjects in order to bring awareness, change, and hope to those who need it.

 

Raised in Southeast Ohio, he’s a sucker for fast workouts, long laughter, and power naps. Snacks are his love language, and he thinks he’s a Pisces. Check him out and join his newsletter at Jacobpaulpatchen.com.

 

Author Links: Facebook / Instagram / Twitter / TikTok / Goodreads

Purchase Link: Amazon

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Hosted by MizB at Should Be Reading

To play along, just answer the following three (3) questions…

• What are you currently reading?

• What did you recently finish reading?

• What do you think you’ll read next?

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What are you currently reading?

Jezebel by Gordon A. Kessler

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JEZEBEL—a Thriller Novel

Sleep Lightly Tonight, America…JEZEBEL is on the loose!

In Jezebel: a madman has come to town seeking a diabolical revenge and large dogs begin attacking their masters for no apparent reason and with heinous results.

Animal Control Director Tony Parker must find out why and stop the murderous attacks. Meanwhile, Jezebel, a huge black Great Dane has killed her master and is loose, terrorizing the city and stalking Parker and his family. Parker and Sarah Hill, his beautiful and seductive young assistant, attempt to unravel the mystery and stop the terrible carnage while dealing with their own demons and lusty desires.

The attacks must be stopped. Jezebel must be found-and soon, you see—there is one other complication. Parker seems to have come down with an annoying little virus. No, it’s not one of those irritating summer colds. It’s certain death.

She’s a murderess, huge and black as a hell-bound night.

Beware, Jezebel is on the loose!

I can’t wait to tell you about this!

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What did you recently finish reading?

Broken Wings by Alexandrea Weis

Broken Wings

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As a wildlife rehabilitator in southeast Louisiana, Pamela Wells has dealt with her fair share of wild animals, but her reclusive life is forever changed when she meets an elusive former soldier named Daniel Phillips. Sent to Pamela’s wildlife sanctuary as part of his parole requirements, Daniel and Pamela quickly clash until Daniel’s troubled past unexpectedly comes to light. After serving in Iraq, Daniel suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder. Pamela tries to help ease his condition by introducing him to the healing power of animals. Daniel begins to find peace, and an unexpected kindred spirit in Pamela. Fearing one day she will be forced to give up her beloved sanctuary, Pamela confides in Daniel about her debilitating health. United by their misfortunes, the relationship turns romantic. Just when Pamela has found someone to love and share her burdens, Daniel skips town, crushing her heart. Suddenly Pamela finds herself alone and in a desperate situation. She has no choice but to turn to a ruthless Louisiana attorney, Bob Patrick, for help. Bob promises Pamela financial security in exchange for a life as his obedient wife. When Daniel unexpectedly returns, Bob is not willing to give Pamela up. Like an ensnared bird, Pamela struggles to free herself of her cruel capture. The fight may prove deadly, but Daniel is willing to do anything to save her. Can two broken souls eventually find happiness or, like the broken wings of a dove, will they be forever kept from reaching the heights of heaven.

I’ll be doing my review soon!

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What do you think you’ll read next?

Night Chill by Jeff Gunhus

Night Chill

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Jack Tremont moves his family to the quiet mountains of Western Maryland hoping to leave behind a troubled past and restart his life. Instead, he finds himself caught up in a nightmare when his daughter Sarah is targeted by Nate Huckley, a mysterious and horrifying stranger driven by a dark power that will stop at nothing to possess Sarah. When Sarah goes missing, suspicion falls on Jack and he must uncover the secrets of the small mountain town of Prescott City and face the evil secret hidden there. As he digs further, he learns the conspiracy reaches more deeply than he could have imagined. Finally, he will have to face the question, What is a father willing to do to save his child? The answer? Anything. Anything at all.
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Jeff has written something for us big kids!
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So, whatcha readin?

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